Please help i feel so alone?

I m going thru so much currently and i feel like i deserve this & i have been throu a lot also the past years i can't help my tears they come out alone of all i do is cry but i try to hold it in. I feel lost alone i feel like no one is there for me i can't trust no one all i want to do is cry i feel like theres nothinq to look foward i used like to qo to school because i have a good life in school but now i don't want to go idk how i feel about myself anymore :'( please help me i feel like i have nothinq to look foward to